Wow…sitting here reflecting on this past year and wondering what I want to change in the year to come. The only way to handle this the right way is to be totally transparent.
Yes, there are several things that need to change. Several things that I want to change.
Oh, I have the usual as many others: get better organized, lose 50 pounds…(well maybe not everybody needs to lose 50 pounds!)…, get the birthday cards mailed in time for the actual birthdays….(am I really the only one who tends to send those out late???)
But….I have a few more…serious…things that need to change in my life. So, if you’ll cringe with me, I’ll be transparent and share…
1. My time alone with God. My road is paved with good intentions. I do really well for a few weeks and it’s very apparent to me that I’m going in the right direction. Then for whatever reason…and believe me, some of the reasons are really lame…I will go literal days, if not weeks at a time without opening my Bible other than at church. Then I find myself wondering why in the world there seems to be a problem between me and God!! So, for me, this has to be priority. I’m really quite tired of chaos and frustration in my life. I’m tired of feeling like I’m at the end of my rope with no hope and nowhere to go.
2. I must get on the same page as DH with my spending. We sit down each pay period together and do the bills and determine how much extra to pay on those heinous credit cards and how much to put in savings…but I find myself still making stupid spending mistakes. Mistakes that often make me ashamed to speak of to hubby…and sometimes I don’t. I just can’t bear disappointing him…again…and so I, again, always intend to do better. As a matter of fact, God and I recently spent time together about this very subject and I’m quite certain He will be my strength and my ability to be true to Him and DH in this new year.
3. Honestly….I must become a much better manager of my time on this computer. Many times over the last year, I have found myself neglecting household things to do one more post, or check one more site. Understand, I am VERY convinced that blogging is something God has brought me to. I’m very confident that the blogging is according to His will. What isn’t according to His will is the way I put it before Him and my family…often.
There you have it. I hope I haven’t scared anyone away or made you feel like I’m a fraud. I’m not. I’m just a child of the King who is determined to be a better daughter, wife and mom in the year to come!!
Blessings in the New Year!!!
Deb
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Psalm 37:23, NLT
These sound just like my list of goals/need for change in 2010. Thank you for being so transparent and honest – may God give you the strength to grow in these ways this year!
Deb:
Grab a cuppa your favorite and come visit my blog at http://www.quiltingranny.blogspot.com and you will see I have the same problems. New resolutions for this year is to read my bible faithfully and pray before I open my computer. I need to loose weight & money is horrible because I can't find a job and I am recovering from 2 back surgeries so even my physical therapy is suffering and yet, I purchased something for dinner the other night that was not in our budget.
Sister, we are all human, thank you for sharing!
You, like the rest of us are a work in progress or at least I am. I am praising GOD b/c HE continues to work in and through our hearts each and every day.
Blessings, andrea
It is amazing how there really is "nothing new under the sun!" It seems like so many of us struggle with exactly the same thing.
I praise Him because His mercies really are new every morning. He is so faithful to us and His Love isn't dependent on our performance.
Thank you for sharing. Your post speaks for me and many others.
Have a blessed day in the Lord!
Your goals are mine as well. I pray that the end result will be a year filled with joy and peace and that it will be evidenced in my parenting and relationship with DH and others.
Thank you for sharing!
I think so many of us have similar issues. I love that you are real with everyone…and I would never think of you as a fraud. I wish more people were as real as you.
I have all the same issues… except I have no problem neglecting the household duties for blogging. lol
No, that's not entirely true. I do need to manage my computer time better.
And I just started writing in my prayer journal though I got off track the last couple of days. It seems like the beginning of the week (Monday) is a wonderful day to start up again. 
Better go do that now, by the way…