I just hung up the phone. It was my son. My son who has chosen the other way. There is only one Way, and he has not chosen it. My heart is so heavy. Such a sadness deep, deep within my heart. It’s funny, I guess, when they speak of heart ‘ache,’ there really is an ache. A physical ache inside the heart.
“He knows better,” I cry out, “He knows!”
Why he is choosing this path that surely leads away from our Jesus?
He knows what’s right and what’s wrong! We taught him.
Were we perfect? Surly not, but we showed him the Way. We fed him the Truth.
I cry out to God, “He knows! Why is he doing this?!”
I think I hear a still small voice inside asking me,
“Does he know? Does he really know?
He knows in his head what is right.
Yes, you did teach him, but does he know for himself?
Maybe the question is, dear mama, do you know?
Do you know that I am the Great I AM?
Do you know I created him for Myself?
Do you know that I hold all things together?
Do you know that no plan or purpose of Mine can be thwarted?
Do you know that I love him more the you ever could?
Do you know that I knit him together in your womb, that I saw his unformed body,
and all of his days were written in My book?
Do you know that just as you are, he is the apple of My eye?
His name is carved in the palm of My hands?
Do you know, mama, that I am God and there is no one else;
I am God and there is none like Me?
I declare the end from the beginning.
My counsel shall stand, and I will do My pleasure and purpose.
Do you know that I have plans to prosper him and not harm him,
plans to give him hope and a future?
You have no need to fret. I will pour My spirit upon your offspring.
My blessing upon your descendants.
I formed you and your children and your children’s children for Myself.
That they may set forth My praise and they shall do it.
He certainly knows, and he will know.
“My eye is upon him. His very life is in My hands.”
Dear mama, dry your tears, calm your heart.
Cast your sorrow, your fear, your frustrations on Me.
Let Me carry them.
Surely, you know Me.
Father God, we love You. We know YOU and Your mercy. Give us grace to trust You more! It is with great anticipation that we look forward to the day when all our children have returned to Your arms. Until then, we trust YOU! We KNOW You! Amen.
Thank you for sharing this…so touching! Praying for you and your family as I pray for my family too.
This brought tears to me eyes Michelle. *hugs* Will be praying for you and your family!
Thank you so much for your words of encouragement for the mama of a prodigal. I have been the mama of a prodigal and during the height of this time in my life your words would have been like a gentle rainstorm during a time of drought. So welcomed, so healing. I’ve been a mama who was judged (always in love of course_) when I had a prodigal and I’ve seen other mamas of prodigals lovingly judged too. Unfortunately, those judging never realize that it is so harmful and never helpful. I am so grateful our God loves us all the time.
Thanks for this encouraging post. Know that I pray for you, other moms & prodigals, and for myself and my son who does not seem to be seeking after God.
OMG.. I love that one… some times we forget that God loves our kids even more than we do.. it almost doesnt seem possible.. but He does,, and he has his plan all worked out.. we just cant alway see it..
OMG.. I love that one… some times we forget that God loves our kids even more than we do.. it almost doesnt seem possible.. but He does,, and he has his plan all worked out.. we just cant alway see it..
Yes and Amen…been there before. Still some challenges and these words are true.
I felt I Knew Him more when I had to release the child that was putting their toe across the line, then with the children who had submitted to the Lord without a fight.
The ones that put their toe across in resistance are now the ones who serve Him wholeheartedly…because now it is their belief they walk in and not their parents.
I also Know Him in a deeper way than before.
Wonderful word
Don’t, Don’t, Don’t give up on him (been there and back). But, I can tell you haven’t given up. Praise the Lord.
Thank you so much, ladies, for the prayers and encouragement! This was actually written last year and we continue to see him make foolish choices, BUT we do actually SEE the Lord’s hand moving in his life
We have had to walk in faith, (with not ‘sight’ of His hand) but it is a joy to see the Lord moving. He is a long way away,but one thing the Lord brings to mind is that I was actually in a far ‘worse’ situation when I was his age and look what the Lord has done!! It is the same grace!!
We are determined to fight and take him back from the enemies hand! We will not stop! Please pray for perseverance for us. Thank you again!
I think you need to allow your son to lead his own life without judging him.
I just wanted you to know that your words were a balm to this mother’s heart. Everytime I learn something new about where my son is walking and what he is choosing to do, my heart cries out, “but we taught him, we raised him up to walk in the way of the Christ! Why?” Then I too remember the pit where the Lord met me and picked me up out of the mire and cleansed me and brought me close to His Heart. As a mother, my heart mourns that he chose this path and will have to walk it. I so wanted him to not have the regrets and shame of a life lived for self but….God knows and God sees…He loves that boy more than even I who bore him. I will trust in Him, continue committing that son to the Lord and holding on to His promises. Thank you and may our God and Father bless you.